Wow, what a WEEK!

RIP Michael Jackson...so much of his music has been in constant play for me, and I didn't get a THING done at work on Tuesday, as I watched the tribute on TV. I was good until his daughter got up there and spoke about her father...I definitely teared up! Yes I know I didn't know the man personally...but just to think about his kids for a minute...REGARDLESS of whether you think those kids are biologically his or not, MJ was the only FATHER and really only PARENT they ever knew. That made me sad.
MJ will be missed music wise.

Steve McNair...my heart goes out to his wife and children. I can't imagine what his wife is feeling right now. I know her first instinct has to be to care for her kids and be strong for them...imagine your father's death being all over the news and all the details spilling out...that part is horrible. Yeah, he shouldn't have cheated on his wife, but yeah, the girlfriend was having issues of her own and had NO business taking her own life, let alone someone else's. I can maybe remember being 19 and stupid but never to the point of taking my own life because it was a mess! And trust, I experienced depression, lost my grandmother, couldn't go off to school...but just goes to show, love can make you do some crazy things. The whole situation is very sad. Both sets of families are in my prayers.

I have been stalling in a few areas of my life. I need to get it together! I pretty much have a new job, that all I have to do is submit some paperwork...and schedule an appointment to see what the next step is. That's it. I also have dental work that should have gotten done LAST year, need to see the eye doctor to see about getting contacts...and I have some unfinished busines with a school that says I owe them money (LONG story I don't feel like telling.). Sometimes it sucks being an adult. But I can suck it up and get everything straight really soon.

Pretty sure I want to pursue a career in education for the next decade or so. Not so sure I want to be in the classroom, so I'm exploring my options and have two in particular in mind. Definitely have been talking to different people, and praying on it. We'll see where this all goes.

Wednesday-what a day. I went to see Transformers (which was GOOOOODDDDD) then went to bible study which was excellent! After spending the morning just going on and on about how awesome me and Keith were doing, stuff hit the fan tonight. And honestly I'm glad it did, because some things came out that I didn't know! I found out we weren't on the same page, and we were able to settle some things and end the night on a good note, prayed together, and left it in God's hands.

I was supposed to be going BACK to NYC in 3 weeks, but unless a miracle happens, it's not happening. Does it suck? Not really. I wanted to go, but I have business to take care of here.

I have not heard from financial aid at my school YET about this fall, had to submit TWO sets of paperwork-verification forms, then special circumstances forms. I need to call my school TOMORROW!

I'm really seriously thinking about getting my own spot this year. Only thing is, if I get my own spot, I'd have to worry about breaking it (or subleasing) when I graduate in May, because I plan to relocate after I graduate (where? that is up to God! depends on employment/grad school opportunities!). I would really prefer to be closer to my school, so if I can get a nine month lease, that would be great!

I'm just at the place right now where i thought I was saving up for something in particular, but I'm prepared to move ahead with my plans, not waiting on everything to be perfect and to happen like I thought it would. I wanted to say "forget it, I'll just travel, and spend that money on something else," but I still need to save for an apartment, get a car, and prepare for this last year of school. I can't believe I have TWO semesters left and there's a GOOD chance I'll be on my own by the end of next summer. Wow, that is mindblowing, but LONG overdue. Time to cut that cord and GO!

Ummm not a whole lot else is goin on. Chicago trip is next weekend with the fam (yay!) and it's going to be a pretty short trip (Friday afternoon-Monday morning) which sucks but since it's so cheap to travel to Chicago, I'm considering going back in August right before school starts for a weekend.

I know everything will fall into place with the new job, my future career, things with Keith (I MAY or MAY NOT do a protected post on that...nah, I won't...just keep us in your prayers we have some obstacles that we need God's help in overcoming...so pray for us as we pray together and work through things), and just being where God wants me!

Other than the aformentioned issues me and Keith need to work through, things with us are really good. If there was EVER any doubt with us, there isn't after the first half of this year...we've come a LONG way! God is so good, and He's kept us, and communication has been our saving grace, for real! I love that man SO much, and it's quite clear we have work to do together, as a couple, as well as individuals!

Forgive me if the posts are a little redundant. I've been in relax mode most of the summer, so my brain hasn't been up to writing anything super significant lol. Even twitter, I didn't tell anybody I had one, and I'm kinda bored with it now. Thinking about deleting it. idk. lol. My mindset is a little different now-I used to be VERY nosy and wanted to know everything. Now for me-ignorance is bliss, I know too much sometimes. I was so tempted to gossip about something I was nosy about on FB, but I won't. lol.

Alright y'all. Til next time PEACE! OH and I don't feel like doing the blog on Shaq anymore. LOL

Wow, so I have a little bit I want to write about-Shaq coming to Cleveland and why I have mixed feelings about that

but for now, I want to say RIP to Ed McMahon, Farrah Fawcett, and Michael Jackson.

What my grandmother used to say is true-death does come in threes.

The events of this week confirms that we don't have as much time as we think. I have friends who waste time and energy on dumb things...youth TRULY is wasted on the young! I want to spend these youthful years productive, and not look back and be mad I waited so long for things to happen.

Next time I update I'll either be IN NYC or back home from NYC, since I leave for NYC at noon, in like 10 hours or so.

Time for bed, so HOLLA

YAYYY it's Friday! Despite all the hecticness of my life right now, I'm excited! I get off work soon, and it's supposed to be pretty nice! Despite some plans up in the air at the moment (life wise and weekend wise) I decided to write a blog to reflect my mood! So this one is called "I cant wait to..."

I Can't WAIT to...

1. GO HOME and GET PRETTY (prettier actually lol). I'm going home and putting on my maxi dress and doing something fabulous with my hair! I have decided to just work on looking good just because, and not just for special occasions or when I see Keith! I want looking good to be a habit of mine!!!! lol of course I naturally look good, but it's always good to put forth a little extra effort, right?

2. COOK for my daddy! I'm normally not in love with cooking, but I'm embracing my feminine side and the sisters and I are cooking for my dad for fathers day! greens, chicken, cornbread, and tea...YUM!

3. GO TO NYC next weekend! It's my new favorite city besides Chicago! I never thought I'd love NYC this much, let alone go twice in one year, possibly three times (might go in August!). This time I'm going with one of my best friends, Anazette...ahhhh! I'm SO excited! AND I get paid the day before? OH yes!

4. START and FINISH my FINAL YEAR of UNDERGRAD!!!!!!! I think the happiest day of my life thusfar will be when I cross that stage to receive my Bachelors. I was actually going to do City Year for this year, but changed my mind...my parents asked what changed and I said "I got tired of leaving things undone. I want to FINISH undergrad. I want to feel like I've accomplished something. I want to graduate."

5. LOSE THIS WEIGHT! I would love to lose about 20 lbs or so...I know what my healthy weight is, and I would love to drop a few pants sizes back down to a size ten and get rid of my stomach...I know it will take a LOT of discipline but I can DO IT! I wanna look RIGHT by the time I graduate!

6. WATCH FOOTBALL! I like baseball, it's okay, but football is SO much better!

7. Grow my hair out! I've gotta do something different...any suggestions? (besides going natural? I'm not quite ready for that yet)...
Ladies, supposedly wrapping your hair isn't the greatest? ummmm help! lol

8. See all my fam become successful! This means my xanga fam too! I can't wait to see everyone doing what they're supposed to be doing...it's exciting watching others grow and succeed!

There are other things I can't wait for, but I'll keep those to myself!!!!! LOL

Happy Friday to all! Catch Y'all Later!